BACK AT IT...

I am back at work now. Not that I am particularly happy about it. I need to make money to survive.

I had my 33rd birthday on September 13th. I took some time off for a vacation. It was nice to get away, but I was busier than I had wanted to be. I wanted to visit my sister in Massachusetts, but my friend Mel needed help with her new business.

The biggest dissapointment was my friend AJ not calling me on my birthday. She and I spoke yesterday, and I told her without telling her...I just bragged about the great bag that BB gave me for my birthday. (It is a great bag!) She said that we are going to have lunch together tomorrow...we will see. I really miss seeing her. I wish I could spend more time with her. I work so many hours and she is a stay-at-home mom. I have no qualms with that. I think it is an honorable thing be. I wish I could be a stay-at-home mom. I do want to settle down and have kids. I know that there are people out there who may read this and jaws will drop to their keyboards in shock.

I have my moments of wanting to settle down...and then...I realize I have already done that and it was such a horrible breakup that I am still afraid to be married again. I truly love the man I am with. I have my moments of which I would love to be alone...others when I can't stand to be without him. (The latter is usually true.)