Fall

I really can't say that I like this time of year. I have always thought that my birthday is the beginning of the end. I don't like cold weather and snow. I hear that this is going to be a snowy winter. I really dislike driving in the snow.

Again...and...again.

I'm still in pain today. I hate having these braces...but I know that my teeth are going to be beautiful when they are straightened.

BB had a long cold and scary drive home last night. He took his nephew home on the Harley last night. For some reason he is losing tire pressure on the bike. I hope that it will be covered by warranty. It has been less than a month since it was professionally put on the bike. This weekend is supposed to be pretty nice. I would like to spend some time on the back of the bike this weekend.

It is another day in HELL. I do hate this job.

The Agony

I am experiencing some major pain right now...You see, I have braces. Yes, I am 33 years old and have braces. Deal with it! I visited the orthodontist this morning and they had to be tightened. This is one of those times that it is really painful. I have taken about 8 Advil today. At one point...I bit down harder than normal...It really hurt. There was a shooting pain that really sent a message to my brain..."Don't do that again!"

Another Day in @#$%

I'm wearing blue today, so I will also submit my blog in blue today.

AJ and I didn't have lunch yesterday. I did see them while at Hannaford yesterday. They were across the parking lot, so I didn't yell to them or anything. First off, because it would have been rude to the person I was speaking to on the phone. (Tina, BB's sister.)

I'm feeling a bit sad today. I'm not sure why. It could be that today is the first day of fall and I know that the days are getting shorter. Darkness depresses me. Fall and winter are really hard on me.

Around the holidays I get really sad because BB doesn't like my mother and is unwilling to spend any time with my family. I have to go to my parent's house alone. Mom hasn't gotten over my divorce. I just wish he could be with me when I visit my family. I need to open up to my family and tell them...HEY! This is the guy I am in love with and probably who I am going to be with for life. It all boils down to this: I am a coward.

I can't remember if I have mentioned that I looked at a Harley Davidson last week. I am probably going to have to let this one go too, but it would be the perfect bike for me. It is a Sportster, which is the smaller frames. It is older, which is really cool. The only thing I would want is another color. I don't even know which color I would want it to be. Red? Purple? Green? I just don't know. It is a matter of whether or not Glenn is going to make it happen. I am hoping that it will be sooner rather than later!

BACK AT IT...

I am back at work now. Not that I am particularly happy about it. I need to make money to survive.

I had my 33rd birthday on September 13th. I took some time off for a vacation. It was nice to get away, but I was busier than I had wanted to be. I wanted to visit my sister in Massachusetts, but my friend Mel needed help with her new business.

The biggest dissapointment was my friend AJ not calling me on my birthday. She and I spoke yesterday, and I told her without telling her...I just bragged about the great bag that BB gave me for my birthday. (It is a great bag!) She said that we are going to have lunch together tomorrow...we will see. I really miss seeing her. I wish I could spend more time with her. I work so many hours and she is a stay-at-home mom. I have no qualms with that. I think it is an honorable thing be. I wish I could be a stay-at-home mom. I do want to settle down and have kids. I know that there are people out there who may read this and jaws will drop to their keyboards in shock.

I have my moments of wanting to settle down...and then...I realize I have already done that and it was such a horrible breakup that I am still afraid to be married again. I truly love the man I am with. I have my moments of which I would love to be alone...others when I can't stand to be without him. (The latter is usually true.)

Last day...

...OK... It is only the last day before my vacation. Hooray! I wish it was that last day I had to work...ever, but alas, It isn't so...

I have a busy weekend ahead of me. Saturday is my friend, Ellen's, birthday party. She and I share the same birth date...except that she is older than I am.

BB and I are doing to the Toy Run on Sunday. BB's Harley Davidson is at the local garage for a once over. He recently put 500 miles on the rebuilt engine. SHOVEL!!! I wish I had a pic of the bike to post..I will do that soon...

Today is going to be "One of those days..." People are making sure my last day at work for awhile is bad. AAGH!

Ramblings...

We went for a motorcycle ride last night. It was my first time on BB's HD in a long time. It was a perfect night. It got a little cool, but I had my leather jacket with me. I think saddle bags are needed. Thankfully we were riding with a friend who rides a converted police bike. He let me put my jacket in one of his bags... We all went to Bugaboo Creek Steakhouse for dinner. It was great! I hadn't had steak in awhile! Yummy!

I need to do some serious grocery shopping tonight. We have so little in the house. I need to restock the freezer too. I'm in the process of making a list of things that I need.

Finally Friday

I am working all weekend. I don't have a day off until Labor Day. I'm glad to at least have one day off that all my friends and family aren't working. I'm going to see my parents. OK...there is a method to my madness...I want my dishwasher! It is in my parent's garage.

I'm hoping that I can see my sister and niece and nephew.

I am just waiting for my vacation! I need to get out of this place.....

NO Patience!

Yesterday

I have to say that yesterday was one of my worst days at work in awhile. People were just in bad moods. Some had sarcasm just dripping. One particular guy I would have just loved to give him a piece of my mind. I just wanted to go home and cry! I am really stressed out. I didn't make my quota for August and I am really angered about that! I tried my damdest to get everything and it just didn't go well!

I am taking some time off...I can't wait until I am off....

Kathleen

Let's try this again...I had an entire post, and erased it by accident.

My best friend, Katie, called me last night. I'm so glad she called me, because I had been thinking of her all day. Amazing how in sync she and I are. I think we are going to be spending some of Labor Day together. I hope it is good beach weather!

She told me that she and her fiancee are in pre-marital counseling. Good. I am worried about her. Apparently he is also seeing a therapist because he has abandonment issues. Good! Katie told me that he was a ward of the state until he was 13. He was passed around from family to family until he was adopted. Sad.

They have set a wedding date. May 28th. O.K. I want to lose some weight before then. I need to eat healthier anyway!

More later...

Happy Anniversary MOM and DAD!